I WISH I COULD.....

i wish i could force myself to say what i really wnat to say;
do what i really want to do.
if i could do anything in the world, it would be to stay in your arms forever.
i could do that. but you..
you're hardheaded; stubborn; and sometimes even caring too.
i despise you, and yet the attraction between us is so great,
it could probably move mountains.
i know what i feel for you but
i dont know why i cannot speak these words,
and am sorry that it is like this.
maybe things will get better..
people grow with time, and people change.
maybe you will know this one day.
maybe then i will know the truth..
how you feel.
i do wonder.
but i can wait...