if a die???

If i die will any1 miss me? If i die will i be remembered? If i die will they cry because im gone? If i die will my best friend be there? If i die will he care? If i die would people change the way they think? If i commit suicide will people judge the person that I was? If i commit suicide will some1 blame themself? If i commit suicide will my parents be embarresed to call me their daughter? If i think of these things constantly should i commit suicide and take the easy way out or should i fight and pray to god for the best?????